Today Martha called her sister earlier than usual. By Martha’s voice, the sister figured out that something’s wrong. But Martha didn’t want to say what is wrong. Only after the evening phonecall Martha revealed the reason for her todays lack of mood. Today is the fifth anniversary of Csaba’s death.

Martha couldn’t sleep at night. Only midnight started and she realized that at this moment exactly five years passed now.

Martha thinks aboout Csaba every day. She can not accept that he is dead. Sometimes she even has something of a grudge against him, that he died and left her alone with responsibility for the accident.

Today Martha felt Csaba’s presence in some special way. Just as if he was with her and talked with her, like he was saying something to her, and she was saying something to him. A difficult day…

It’s good that letters from sister and mum were delivered to Martha today. They cheered her up. Few days ago, Martha also received a Christmas card from sister and mum. Family and friends support is especially valuable in such moments.