“It’s my life – A life sentence! Fragments of book written by Polish woman convicted for murder” – The Polish Telegraph (in Polish language)

Its my LIFE – Dożywocie! Fragmenty książki Polki skazanej za morderstwo! | The Polish Telegraph

Its my LIFE – Dożywocie! Fragmenty książki Polki skazanej za morderstwo! | The Polish Telegraph

Source: www.thepolishtelegraph.co.uk/wiadomosci/artykul/175-its-my-life-dozywocie-fragmenty-ksiazki-polki-skazanej-za-morderstwo

“Who was he for me? – he was following me literally everywhere… I had no idea how he does that. I started thinking that I have a GPS in my car.” – twentieth fragment of Martha’s book

After that, my roommate and others found out that’s something is wrong, and asked me if I needed any help. I was certain that he will get bored or his brother will talk to him. My roommate (with whom I live for 8 years), talked to his brother. It even worked for almost a month. But only with phone calls because he knew, that I won’t answer or text him back. Quickly I’ve noticed that he is following me literally everywhere, to the shop, to friends, to Dublin airport, to work… I had no idea how he does that. I started thinking that I have a GPS in my car.

It’s starting again… The worst month in the year…

Martha’s family is able to recognize Martha’s mood from the tone of her voice on the phone.
Is everything alright or not.

On last calls Martha is sad.
When pressed, she finally said:
“It’s 6 years already.
It’s the month.
I’m imagining Csaba’s family.
His Mother and Brother, when they stand over Csaba’s grave.”

Recently Martha’s family is very busy.
Last arrangements about further actions in Martha’s case are finalized.
Very important final meetings and arrangements.

“If you need this, If you can’t handle this, we will specially come to you”

“No, there’s no need”

After experiences of past 6 years, Martha’s family is exceptionally watchful in March.
Nevertheless it’s Martha who always reminds about this month.
It’s good that this year she reminded earlier, and not near March 26.

Not sleeping at night… thinking…wondering… analyzing what could be done differently, is starting again.
And there’s no counsellor around…
Everlasting trauma, returning with enormous power…

We thank very much to Martha’s friends in Ireland.
If it is possible please use all visit Martha is entitled to.
Thank you very much…

“Who was he for me? – …I’ve noticed… his car more often at my home… I’ve figured out that he’s following me. He found all places where my friends live…” – sixteenth fragment of Martha’s book

“I’ve noticed, that he rides to work earlier than he was supposed to, so he can park his car beside me, and when when I signed out at the end of the work day, he was waiting near my car. He insisted for us to go for coffee but I refused syaing that I’m busy. I’ve also noticed his car more often at my home, and after short time, I’ve figured out that he’s following me. He found all places where my friends live, because it is a small village.”

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I want to help

Do you live in Ireland? Will you want to help in a production of a TV broadcast about Martha’s case? – You are welcome

If you live in Ireland, and you would like to have some contribution in the production of a programme about Martha, than you have such possibility.
We urgently need any video recordings connected to the victims of the accident: Martha and the late Csaba.
Any recordings connected to where Martha lived or where she was working.
Any recordings of meetings in which she participated.
Recordings with the late Csaba would be equally important. All of his workplaces. Relations in his previous workplace. Recordings of his work on any of the cruise ships.
Recordings from the place of accident would be very important. Recordings from before  2013 would allow to asses the quality level of the barriers and the security of the wharf. Current recordings show how thoroughly the wharf was secured after the unfortunate accident.

What about the recordings undisclosed until now?
It’s the best time for sharing them.
Every detail may be very important.

We will be grateful for any shared recording.

“Who was he for me?… His jokes started to be less and less funny… Do not stand beside her! Do not ever park beside her.” – fourteenth fragment of Martha’s book

Fourteenth fragmentAll meetings ended with this, because I was in Poland, and after returning to work, on the second year of our acquaintance, innocent jokes started around us. Everyone was laughing when he joked that I will be his wife, but I let it out with my other ear, knowing, that he’s joking. After some time it began to be awkward, because his jokes startes to be less and less funny and pointed individually to coworkers, for example: “Do not stand beside her, do not ever park beside her.”

“Who was he for me?… I was also at his birthday, but only for 15 minutes, because he saw me, and asked me from the balcony to come in, just for a minute” – thirteenth fragment of Martha’s book

fragmentAt work he often liked to start chatting. For the first year everything was calm, and I had friendly relations with him and his brother. We even had coffee and a cake with his brother on his name day (or his brother’s name day, I don’t remember precisely). I visited them three times during the first year, when he asked me to lend him some money, when he needed to repair his car. I was also at his birthday, but only for 15 minutes, because he saw me, and asked me from the balcony to come in, just for a minute.

“Who was he for me?… He seemed like a calm man.” – twelfth fragment of Martha’s book

He was also sometimes assigned by the manager, to explain to me how I am supposed to work, because I was a new employee. He was kind, polite, and patient. When he could, he was giving me and other workers a ride to work, when we were starting on the same hour. We came back from work also together. But before that, at the very beginning, we had a taxi for workers, which was taken away from us. At that time we were all giving each other a ride. To me he was a hard-working, and he didn’t like when someone was lazy. He seemed like a calm man.

“Who was he for me?… He had a kind heart when speaking of his family” – eleventh fragment of Martha

Who was he for me?

I first met him when I started working in the same hotel. We have known each other for two years but it wasn’t a close acquaintance. We were from different environments. He had his colleagues and spent the time with them. We never went together anywhere and there was no romantic or sexual relation between us. For the first year Csaba was courteous man. He had a kind heart when speaking of his family.

“Everywhere is full of …, …, … (three names in plural come up)

We have published Martha’s painting “Fire everywhere around”.
The picture was painted on March 23, 2018 – on fifth anniversary of Csaba Orsos’s death.
Mum had encouraged Martha to paint her feelings.
So she will express her emotions that way.
Martha painted and sent to the family.
With a note “After reading, please throw away this ugly picture, so it won’t be scaring you”.
We have described the picture in one of previous posts.
The painting has something in it.
It expresses something.

We have agreed with Martha to make it public.
Martha gave a title.
She also explained what was on her mind wile painting it:
“Everywhere is full of …, …, … (and here three names in plural come up).

How did it happen, that there are so many unfriendly people around?

Martha holds no grudge towards Csaba.
For his behavior in the car he paid the biggest price.
She regrets very much, that he couldn’t make it to the shore.
If he had survived, he would be the one to be expected to give testimony and explanation of what had happened.

Csaba is dead.

Others live.
…, …, …
“Fire everywhere around”

A picture painted in different circumstances, fits to feelings of Martha and her family after the unfavorable decision of Supreme Court.
…, …, …, are still triumphant.

One of Irish newspapers, which is reading thoroughly through our sites, in their articles matched Martha’s general mentions to specific inmates.
Will now the newspaper want to establish, whom Martha could have on her mind while painting the picture?
It is welcome to do it.
Or maybe it will make it’s own list of people most… “deserving”?